- Cessation of work, exertion, or activity.
- Peace, ease, or refreshment resulting from sleep or the cessation of an activity.
- Sleep or quiet relaxation.
- Relief or freedom from disquiet or disturbance.
- Mental or emotional tranquillity.
- To be at peace or ease; be tranquil.
Many times in my life... ok, MOST times in my life I feel like I am about 3 steps behind and can never quite catch up. To anything. Ever.
It leaves me in a constant state of feeling like I am failing.
No matter how hard I try I can't ever seem to make things WORK the way I want them to and it completely overwhelms me.
The thing about being overwhelmed is it makes you feel exhausted. I feel worn out pretty much all the time.
No matter how much sleep I get I never really feel rested because my mind never stops whirring with the thoughts of all the ways I am failing, all the reasons I suck and all the ways in which my inadequacies as a mother and inability to catch up are going to permanently damage my children.
Instead of spurring me on to jump up and GET ON IT and REVOLUTIONIZE my whole life and reality all these feelings simply make me want to curl up in a ball and sink lower into my depression.
Which really helps a lot. (sarcasm)
The last time we were at the doctor for one of my children he was talking about how sleep issues can wreak havoc with a child's impulse control. He then went on to say this one little phrase "after all, when any person isn't fully rested it is impossible for them to perform at their best".
DING DING DING
WE NEED REST in this family!
Not just me- all of us.
And I'm not just talking about sleep - I'm talking about the soul-rest that you feel when you know you are ok and that you don't completely suck... when you have "Mental or emotional tranquillity" as per the definition of rest.
That is my goal for me and for my family this year. Deep down soul-rest.
My One Word for 2012 was Peace and my 3 Words for 2011 were Hope, Joy, and Thankfulness. Each year those words have really meant a lot to me throughout the year and I am sure this year will be no exception!
Do you have a WORD for 2013?