When Autism Feels Like More Than I Can Handle

My son is struggling.

We are struggling.

His teacher and EA are struggling.

Aiden is angry from the time he gets up in the morning until the time he goes to sleep at night.

He has become increasingly aggressive and violent and today I found out that he spent his day kicking and hitting his EA. The wonderful EA that Aiden loves.

His words have become cruel. He is spewing venom at us all.

And I know it is a direct result of the chaos in his mind. There has been too much transition and change for him to handle. This summer was rough for him and he is not ok.

All that angst has to come out... and so it is coming out in anger and violence.

It breaks my heart.

Autism and Oppositional Defiant Disorder and ADHD and change and transitions beyond his control have all combined to create a child in crisis.

I talked to our Autism counsellor and she has a plan. We are all going to meet - the teacher, EA, counsellor, special education lady and us- on Wednesday and try and come up with a plan.

I am so sad.

Because my son is good. He is smart. He is funny. He is more than Autism, ODD & ADHD. But when he is kicking you and telling you he wishes you were dead it is very hard to see the wonderful boy he is inside.

I can't imagine how hard it must be to live every day feeling angry all the time.

If you are the praying type please feel free to pray for Aiden and for our life with him.


(photo taken by my husband Doug Robertson)

Comments

Ann-Marie said…
I too have a son named Aidan with ADHD, ODD & recently diagnosed as ASD. My son doesn't have school supports but I can relate to feelings of frustration with his anger & loving the sweet little bot within him. I will be praying for you, your Aiden & your family!!
Ann-Marie said…
Boy, that should say ;)

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