Just over 2 years ago we put Aiden on some medication to help curb his aggression. Before the medication Aiden was extremely angry and very violent. Multiple times per day he would hit, punch, kick, and generally beat up anyone or anything he could get his hands on. It was scary.
This was before Aiden had his official Autism diagnosis but our pediatrician at the time was brilliant and suggested we try the medication. We did. It worked. It was amazing.
I honestly can't even begin to describe what a huge difference those little pills made in our life. I am crying just thinking about it. It completely revolutionized our family life.
But we always knew a time would come when he would need to go off of the medication. It can screw with testosterone levels so it is not recommended during puberty. Apparently puberty can start as early as 8 these days (which is insane by the way) so our pediatrician decided it was time to wean Aiden off the medication.
When he noticed the panicky look on my face at the mere suggestion he started to tell me that he didn't think it was really working anyway. He thought that it may have worked really well at the start but that if it was really working well now Aiden wouldn't have as many outbursts as he does. He also mentioned that all the counselling and work we've done with Aiden has probably made the medication unnecessary.
I was not convinced but we figured it was worth a shot. After all it would be fabulous if he didn't need the medication anymore. I would love that.
I asked what we would do if it didn't work and the pediatrician mentioned that we've exhausted pretty much all of the medication options... and then he just said "so lets see what happens". Scary.
So last month we started the weaning process. According to the pediatrician if we did it nice and slow there shouldn't be any withdrawal-related issues.
Either Aiden is having some serious withdrawal issues or the medication really was making a HUGE difference and the pediatrician is just plain wrong.
Aiden has been getting angrier and angrier as the days go by. In the past week he has punched multiple people both at school and at home.
I am freaking out.
I am so afraid of what that means.
I know we have to continue the process of weaning because it is possible it is just withdrawal issues and they will go away.
And we don't see the pediatrician until next month.
But what if it is NOT just withdrawal?
What if all that violence is coming back?
Aiden is 2 years older, 2 years bigger and 2 years stronger than he was when we started the meds. Punching now hurts a lot more and he is a heck of a lot harder to restrain. The consequences of hitting at school are now significantly higher.
This could be very bad. And that scares me.
I love my son. He is funny and intelligent and he works so very hard just to function "normally" throughout the day.
It is not fair that he has to deal with Autism, ADHD, and massive sensory issues and then top it all off with serious Asthma. It is just not ok.
Feel free to send lots of prayers and good thoughts our way.
We sure do need them.