As most of you know my son Aiden is in the process of being "diagnosed"... likely with an autism spectrum disorder or something similar. We have been in this process for an excrutiatingly long time.
We have had a problem with him running away from school when he gets stressed out. He is in grade one and has run away dozens of times. God is very smart though and has made it so that we only live a little over a block away from the school. It is still incredibly unsafe and terrifies me AND the school.
Today he ran away again at lunch time. He arrived at home sobbing and shaking. The first words out of his mouth were "I looked both ways when I crossed both streets but I just didn't care I had to get home to see mama" and then collapsed into my arms.
I managed to get him relatively calmed down and we walked back to the school together. His principal had called home in the few minutes he was gone and she was there to meet us upon our return. I tried to get him settled into his classroom but he was still sobbing when I left. I went and talked to the principal and one of his teachers and when I was leaving the school Aiden was in his "calm down" room still freaking out.
I HATE leaving him like that. HATE IT. I just wanted to scoop him up and take him home. But I know that if I do that he will think that if he runs away he will get to come home and he would do it even more often. It is already below freezing here and in a month or so it will be cold enough to freeze little hands and ears outside so he must NOT be running away. Not to mention the fact that he has to cross two streets to get home and he has run right in front of a truck before. Luckily we live in a small town where MOST people drive pretty slow and the truck just stopped and he was ok... but it only takes once. And what if I wasn't at home? Granted I am not out very often but it could happen and THEN what would he do???
So I guess the new medication we are trying isn't working all that well after all.
I am still fervently praying that we can somehow miraculously get into the assessment centre earlier (we are on a one year waiting list right now).
The whole thing just makes me so sad.