The workings of a strange mind

My friend Reanne came over for a visit today. It was very nice to see her. Her family moved away before Christmas after her daughter Jadyn died. They are in town visiting her folks this week. The kids were SO excited to see each other again.

Here is a group shot of our brood...Our kids are all VERY close in age. My Aiden and her Shyla were in kindergarten together. My Owen and her Kylie were in pre-kindergarten together and my Olivia and her Jonathyn are only 2 months apart in age. Even our lost babies were the same age- I had my fourth miscarriage while she was pregnant with her Jadyn. So if my pregnancy had lasted I would have had a baby within a couple weeks of her Jadyn being born. Now both are in heaven with Jesus. All that to say we have a fair bit in common.

Here is a shot of Reanne and I...
No one seems to notice but my I got my mom to cut about 6 or 7 inches off of my hair yesterday. It was driving me crazy. But I suppose if you always keep your hair in a ponytail no one is going to notice when half of it is gone.

In other news...

I am exhausted but I can't sleep.

All three of my children are asleep.

I am not.

This happens to me sometimes when I think too much. I lie down to go to sleep and can't shut my ridiculous brain off. Then I end up spiralling down some miserable mind path and that doesn't help anyone.

So I got up to attempt to catch up on my google-reader. For those of you who don't know what google-reader is it keeps track of the blogs you subscribe to and notifies you when they post something new. That way you don't have to keep checking back every five minutes to see if someone has posted something new. It just shows up in your google reader when they do. Very handy.

Anyway, now I am done catching up on blogs and my brain still hasn't mellowed out. I don't know what is going on with me these days. My body is rebelling against me... as though it wasn't screwed up enough before. Now I have these moments where I get all shaky and weak and feel like passing out.

Yes. I have a doctor's appointment on Wednesday. That was the soonest I could get it.

But it is more than just physical shaking... its like emotional shakiness too. I really don't know how to describe it. It reminds me a bit of the panic attacks I used to have when my son Owen was an infant and Aiden was 18 months old. Except I don't feel panicky with these. Just sort of ... weird.

Good description eh?

Olivia has some new tricks that are very cute. She has learned to colour...
She has learned to draw on a chalk board...
And she really enjoys turning around in circles. It is very cute to watch. She has started calling my mom bama which absolutely thrills my mom. Owen used to call her damma which was pretty funny. I think she prefers bama.

I think I have emptied my brain enough to try for some sleep again. Sweet dreams everyone.