So it seems that I may not have entirely escaped postpartum depression. I have been steadily going downhill for a few weeks now and last week finally realized what was going on. Now, yes, I am sleep-deprived and that could be causing much of my mood. But since I have been down this road before I know that I am not capable of coping on my own.
So I went to the doctor on Friday and she is going to try to get me into an endocrinologist (a doctor who specializes in thyroid issues such as I have) but unfortunately we don't have any in Saskatchewan right now so she'll do her best but it could take awhile. In the meantime she asked me to go on an anti-depressant for a 6 week trial. Her theory being if it works then we know it was simply postpartum depression and the meds will keep me sane until it passes and my thyroid medication is doing its job. If they don't work then we know to continue pursuing the endocrinologist route and no more depression meds. I am also going to start in on some counseling with a Christian counselor we have who works with our church. Monday night will be my first session and I am bringing my husband along too. All in all I feel good about this course of action. I am simply unwilling to play the hero and try to fix this on my own. And really, its not too bad right now and I want to do something to prevent it from getting worse. I never want to feel as badly as I felt the last time I had postpartum depression. Just in case anyone out there gets the urge to lecture me about God not wanting me to take meds and if I had enough faith this wouldn't happen and Christians shouldn't be depressed... please keep your well-intentioned comments to yourself. I have heard them all before and feel that God and I are both ok with my present course of action. Thanks.
In other news a family in our church had their house burn down today. They got out with the clothes on their backs, nothing else. Pray for them if you think of them.